After the mission was completed, Sano and Ito Taka separated.
…In fact, of course Sano could feel that something was not quite right with him.
Temporary irritability and boredom may be caused by something.
But if it lasts for a long time, it will never be like this.
Of course, Sano didn’t think too much about it, because such things are very common, and no one can maintain an optimistic and happy mood all the time.
Even if nothing bad happened.
Occasionally during the climax period, no matter what it is, it seems to be interesting. Even if there is nothing interesting, you can still “discover” interesting things through the surface of those boring things.
The normal state of most people is what Sano calls the dull period. They will be interested when they encounter interesting things, and they will feel distressed and angry when they encounter bad things.
The same occasional low period may also be called a weak period or a stress period.
Don’t call it a bad thing, even if it is an interesting thing, you may just feel noisy and boring when you look at it. Either you don’t want to move, or you are extremely irritable.
It’s like falling in love.
It’s just that unlike love, there can be many loves in life… Of course, there can also be many loves, but at least love can be said to have a trace and a sequence to follow, while the former has no rules at all.
Come as soon as you say, leave as soon as you say.
Even weirder than the girls’ relatives…so he can also be called “uncle”?
The problem with Sano is that his “performance” is stronger than that of ordinary people.
For example, when someone is stimulated, they may yell and read their family tree.
Sano may take action directly… Even considering the current situation, it is hard to say whether he will kill people or even go on a killing spree.
After all, leaving aside the last days of his previous life, this was the first time Sano had entered such a low ebb period after getting blood on his hands, and he had little experience.
This is why Sano calls it a stress period.
There is also a reason for the name weak period.
Specifically speaking, people will become very pessimistic and even tend to nihilism… maybe there will be a little bit of sage time?
For example, if you are in this stage of love, you will probably think “Ah, falling in love is really boring, let’s break up”, but in Sano, it is very likely – “Ah, living is really boring, let’s just die” .
And this is just one of the manifestations.
Others can be –
It’s really boring here. Let’s go somewhere else.
It’s really boring to stay in an organization, so try another organization.
Etc., etc.
Not only will there be these conclusions, but there is also a lot of thinking and argumentation process ahead… These ideas are actually very unnecessary. They will most likely be thrown out of mind after the low ebb period is over, but Sano can’t control himself at all. The brain, so it can only be allowed to develop freely, and the soul can wander for nine days.
…Anyway, in the end, no matter it’s because of something or something else, the low period will always end on its own, and it doesn’t make much sense to worry about it.
Sano relaxed himself a little, making his mood a little more open-minded.
Otherwise, if you really don’t care about anything, you might do something else… Although Sano seems to be fine if he is not stimulated now, the reason for the word “weakness” is not that simple.
If you feel that life is meaningless and nothing you do is interesting, you will want to find “meaning”.
This is like Haihara Ai’s fake lolita, who obviously feels like she can’t live anymore, but still lives shamelessly. That’s why it is said that humans are contradictory creatures.
Sano’s summary of this point is actually – seeking death.
Because people can really do anything to survive, it’s so crazy.
Specifically, maybe you can refer to those extreme sports enthusiasts?
Repeatedly jumping between the two thoughts of “wanting to die” and “finding a way not to die” makes people sink deeper and deeper, as if they are in a quagmire, full of a sense of powerlessness.
…All in all, Sano is indeed a little “abnormal” now.
Sano naturally saw the “abnormality” of the tomboy duo before, and he probably understood why the two of them had such abnormalities.
Although Sano doesn’t really think that he is crazy.
However, considering that in the eyes of most people, neurosis, or to be precise, the word mental illness, represents the code of conduct for judging targets, which is very different from ordinary people.
So Sano may still belong to yes now.
Got sick.
…
Arriving at the door of his home, Sano saw a little girl sitting in a daze at the door with the door open.
“…Ah, good evening, Sichuan.”
When the little girl saw Sano, her eyes suddenly lit up, she got up and started to bow.
“Um.”
After Sano nodded, he touched his pocket and found that all the lollipops on his body had been eaten by him when he had nothing to do in Izu. He could only say: “I have no more candy. I will give you one next time.” .”
The little girl blinked, with a slight hesitation on her face, but in the end she didn’t say anything, she just nodded and said yes.
When he came to his house again and took out the key to open the door, Sano did not enter immediately. Instead, he turned to look at the little girl beside him who had been “peeping” at him eagerly.
“Where’s your mother?”
“He said he has to work overtime and may not come back until dawn.”
The little girl replied.
“oh.”
After Sano nodded, he asked again: “Don’t you dare to sleep alone?”
The little girl blinked again and did not respond, probably due to her pride.
“You can stay at my house and sleep if you want. If you don’t want to, just wait until dawn before going back…”
Before Sano finished speaking, the little girl jumped up: “Really!?”
Sano: “…But I have a request. Don’t make any noise when you come in. If you don’t want to sleep, I will sleep.”
“Okay!”
The little girl excitedly turned around and picked up the key, closed the light and door, and followed into Sano’s house.
Sano pulled out another thin quilt from the big bag in the corner and threw it to the little girl… For a child of this size, this was enough.
It can completely cover the other person from top to bottom, so there is no need to take out another bed to put it underneath.
As for the “bed”, the Sano family doesn’t actually have one.
Usually, a quilt is laid casually on the edge, and it is regarded as a bed, and an extra quilt is put on it. This is probably the same as the term tatami here in Neon.
All in all, the little girl was lying next to Sano.
“Go to sleep.”
Sano didn’t take off his clothes, he casually covered his stomach with the quilt and closed his eyes.
The room quickly became quiet.
It wasn’t until a while later that Sano opened his eyes again: “I said, can you stop staring at me like this.”
The little girl still blinked.
“…You can talk now.”
After receiving the order to lift Sano’s silence order, the little girl finally asked.
“Shu, are you the only one in your family?”
“Um.”
“Then you’re not afraid?”
“You’re not a child, what are you afraid of?”
“Then let me be your family, okay?”
“……casual.”
“Then we are family.”
Sano said no more and closed his eyes.
In the next second, a small hand climbed up to Sano’s head and stroked it gently.
It’s like touching…a dog’s head.
Sano opened his eyes again, looked at the little girl holding her chin next to him, and made a question mark.
“…What are you doing again?”
